Let Love In

I stood on the edge,
Contemplating the view.
A seeming lifetime of rage welled from deep inside.

Off in the distance,
Storm clouds collected.
I could feel the torrential rains and hear the thunder roll.

I sat there in silence,
Just watching, waiting,
For something, for nothing.

I got here by sheer force of will.
I survived with my soul in tact.
I never knew I could be that strong.

The wind blew the storm right to me.
I stood there alone, defiant.
I dared the rain to fall, the lightening to strike.

It only took one drop,
For the torrent inside to flow.
I sat there broken and I cried.

I’ve traveled so far,
I’ve tried for so long,
But I never found what I was looking for.

I couldn’t find what I needed,
Because I couldn’t be what that was.
On my knees now I begged myself for forgiveness, a final release.

The rain soaked me through to the skin.
The tear drops flowed from my very soul.
I just surrendered and let a sea of emotion over take me.

The storm eventually blew over me, through me.
The sunlight spilled down from a break in the clouds.
I raised my self to my feet and stared.

The years have been hard,
The lessons even harder,
But I made it this far.

As the sun breaks free from the clouds,
I realize it’s time I also break free,
Let myself loose from the chains of the past...

A past that kept me caged in pain,
Memories of mistakes I thought hindered my growth,
But as the diamonds dance across the water...

I begin to see,
I truly understand,
Everything happened for a reason.

I turn to go,
Tears still stinging my eyes...
Like a tattered angel, I’m on my way...

Ready this time for a new beginning,
To test my strength,
My capacity to love...

And more importantly, to learn to finally let love in.